Unwanted ~ Part 19

 

Khushi

 

“Think it’s my turn now.”

 

Arnav looked at me, his eyes bright. After the climax he’d just given me, I needed to return the favour.

 

“Babes you’re tired.”

“Nope, I’m not.”

 

I took his lips between mine and I kissed him. I could still taste myself on his tongue. I let my hands wander along his body. His hard abs, his muscular arms…

Without really moving my lips off him completely, I let myself kiss his face, trailing down to his neck. I place a number of little kisses on his neck, occasionally nipping the skin slightly. He was mine, I wasn’t afraid to leave my mark. He held my body close to his, his hands fondling with my breasts. I carried on kissing him, letting my kisses move down to his abs. His body was so hard, every inch was like steel. I took his hardened member into my hands and I rubbed him. He was already so hard, but the moment I touched him, he got harder. I moved down his body, followed the V down until my nose was touching his penis.

 

“Khushi…”

 

He couldn’t say anything else because I’d already taken his length into my mouth. Of course I couldn’t take his full length but I took what I could, all the while playing with his round little members. I moved back but then moved back in again, taking more of him in my mouth. His hands gripped my hair, moving it out of my face while he thrust himself into my mouth. We moved together. I set the pace, he followed. I looked up at him, his eyes were shut, and he was letting low grunts out. He was enjoying what I was going to him. This made me feel good. I was in control, I was able to give him as much pleasure as he was able to give me. He pushed my head further onto him, causing me to take even more of him into my mouth. I could taste the saltiness of his pleasure at the back of my throat and I could tell he was close.

 

“Khushi, I’m almost…”

 

I pulled myself away and took his member back into my hands. I rubbed as hard and as quickly as I could and he came. His hard member was no longer hard. He grabbed hold of my hands and he pulled me onto himself and kissed me. It wasn’t a normal kiss, he put everything into that kiss and I kissed him back with the same amount of passion.

He pulled away first and cupped my face.

 

“Baby… That was…”

 

I pressed my finger onto his lip and I covered us both with the duvet.

 

“If you thank me, I’m never going to do that again.”

 

He smiled and pulled me into his strong arms. Happy endings do exist, because I’ve definitely found mine.

 

*****

 

My alarm clock went off at half 7 and I reached out and turned it off. I moved to get up but I felt a sharp pain in my abdomen. Instead of making me cringe, I couldn’t help but smile. Last night had been mad. We’d stayed up until almost 4, doing it over and over and over again. We needed each other, wanted each other, craved each other. But now it hurt slightly because we went pretty wild. Arnav was still sound asleep next to me. I started to move but he seemed to realise because he’d grabbed hold of my hand. His eyes opened ever so slightly.

 

“Don’t even think about moving. You need rest as much as I do.”

“But what will…”

“No ones going to think anything. We’re newly weds just back from our honeymoon.”

“But you have work to do too…”

“It can wait a little while. Just sleep a little longer with me.”

 

He pulled me down into the bed again and wrapped his arms around me. Soon I was asleep once more.

 

*****

 

“Holy shit Arnav! It’s noon!”

“And…?”

“We’ve been asleep all day!”

 

I jumped out of bed and grabbed the blanket at the end of the bed and wrapped it around me. I rushed out and got hold of my towel and went into the bathroom. I got in and let the blankets fall away from my body and I looked at myself. There were red splodges all over me, love bites… I couldn’t help but blush a little.

 

“Admiring my handy work I see.”

 

I jumped and turned to face Arnav. I scrambled a little to grab hold of something to cover my body, but he reached out and stopped me.

 

“What the heck are you doing in here.”

“I want to have a bath.”

“But you have to wait until I’m done!”

 

He pulled me into him and put his hands on my hips. He tilted my head up slightly and kissed me. I leaned into the kiss, closing my eyes. He broke the kiss a moment later and went over to the bath and began filling it with water. He also poured some bubble bath in and instantly the bath started filling with big bubbles.

The pulled his boxers off himself and held his hand out to me. I took his hand.

 

“Lets have a bath baby…”

 

I nodded and got into the bath and he got in behind me. I leaned back into his chest and turned my head to kiss him. He wrapped his arms around me, his hands fondling with my breasts.

 

“Arnav…”

“I love you.”

“I love you too…”

 

He pulled his lips away from mine and let his lips slide down my neck. His hands too moved down my body.

 

“Arnav we need to get washed and ready…”

“We will.”

 

He touched me down there and I couldn’t help but gasp.

 

“Stop.”

“I’m not doing anything…”

 

He chuckled and moved his hand away and reached out for a bottle of shower gel.

 

“Arnav…” I tried to sound stern.

“I promise, no more funny business for now. I’ll just help you wash and we’ll get out of here.”

 

He rubbed the liquid between his hands and then rubbed it on my body. His hands glided over my shoulders, down my arms, across my stomach and then up to my breasts. He did exactly what he said what he was doing, he washed me, no funny business. Arnav grabbed hold of he bottle again and got some more on his hands. This time, he went down to my legs and washed them, moving up to my thighs and then higher. He kept going, going higher.

 

“Stop, stop.”

“I swear I’m just washing you.”

 

I nodded and he carried on, washing my most private area. The act should feel entirely sexual, but it didn’t. He was telling the truth, he was just washing me. It made me think. So quickly, we had established a level of trust  between us.

He was done with my body and he moved to put shampoo in my hair. He lathered it up in his hands. He massaged the shampoo into my scalp and worked his way down to my roots…

 

*****

 

Half an hour later, we were both washed and out of the bathroom. Arnav was still getting dressed but I was done so I went downstairs.

 

“Good afternoon Khushi, did you sleep well?”

 

I couldn’t help but blush.

 

“Ji di, I slept very well.”

“Is chote on his way down? I can put something together for you guys if he’s coming.”

“Di you don’t have to worry, I’ll prepare something for us.”

“It’s fine, you’re a newly wed, I don’t expect you to be taking up the household chores just yet.”

 

I smiled to Di and told her that he was on his way down.

 

“Why are you two bad mouthing me?”

 

I turned and there he was, my husband, my Arnav. I smiled to him and he smiled back. Anjali Di went off to make us some food and I couldn’t but to look at him and smile. Arnav came and stood next to me and wrapped his arm around my waist.

To think I came into this relationship not wanting it, now, it was the best thing I could ever ask for.

Our relationship, was definitely no longer, unwanted…

 

**End of part 1**

 

Authors note : The relationship that began as being a burden to two individuals has been accepted, but when has the course of true love ever run smooth? This may be the end of the first chapter of Arnav and Khushi’s marriage, but this isn’t the end of their story.

Now I didn’t really know how to carry this story on. I wasn’t sure if I should end it here or if I should just take a time leap and carry on… I just didn’t know what to do. So I have decided that I am going to take a break here. When we come back to this story, things will have changed for our protagonists…

I would also like to take this moment to request for a new banner. My current one doesn’t show up on anything for some reason and I would really appreciate it if someone could make me a new one. Any cute pictures of Arnav and Khushi will do, thank you.

 

 

 

Unwanted ~ Part 18

 

Arnav

 

We dropped our bags onto the floor and walked into the house. Home sweet home. In a way, we didn’t want to be back, but it felt good to be back. We needed to get back and start our new life properly.

 

“How you feeling?”

“Nervous! Super duper nervous.”

“Why?”

“I don’t even know.”

 

I wrapped my arm around Khushi, she was shaking  because of how nervous she was. I gave her a squeeze and that’s when Di came out of the kitchen.

 

“Chote! Khushi! You’re home! Come and sit down, why are you both standing?”

 

We went over and sat down on the sofa and so did Di.

 

“So tell me, how was your honeymoon?”

 

I held Khushi closer and smiled down to her and then looked back to Di.

 

“We had the best time ever.”

“I hope you saw a lot of sites and stuff.”

“We did! And the beach was the best.”

“I’m so glad you enjoyed it.”

“Is it okay if we go up to our room and freshen up a bit?”

“Of course, of course! Go and take some rest.”

 

We got to our feet and then picked our bags up and made our way to our room. Mine and Khushi’s marital bedroom. Once in our room, I shut the door behind me. I closed the distance between me and her and tipped her chin up and placed a gentle kiss on her lips. I held onto her waist, holding her close to me, taking in her scent and just feeling her close to me.

 

“You okay?”

“Never better.”

“I love you Khushi Singh Raizada.”

“Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada.”

“You’re going to keep your entire maiden name and then add Singh Raizada on the end too?”

“Yup!”

“Fine, I’m just going to call you Mrs Raizada.”

“That’s fine by me.”

 

She tiptoed up and kissed me and I kissed her back. This was all we really needed. Each other. To hold each other and just love each other. This felt right, this is where we belonged.

 

“It actually does feel really good to be back.”

“It does. We can go and see your family tomorrow if you want.”

“Can we really?”

“I don’t see why not.”

“You’re the best!”

“Hey hey hey, don’t get too excited, you have to give me something in return.”

“What do you want?”

 

I gestured for her to look over to the bed.

 

“What about the bed?”

“That’s our marital bed.”

“I know.”

“I say we make use of it.”

 

She looked at me, a tad confused. I moved closer to her and pressed my body against hers. The moment our bodies touched, Khushi blushed a deep shade of red.

 

“How are you always so turned on?”

“You are irresistible.”

“So are you.”

 

She closed the gap between us kissed me and I put everything into our kiss back. This was reality, this is what was meant for both of us. How stupid were we to think that we belonged to other people, we were always meant for each other, always…

 

******

 

Khushi started putting her clothes on, but I pulled her kameez out of her hand and pulled her back into bed.

 

“We’ve only just got back home, we can’t stay locked away in our room all day.”

“Yes we can, we’ve come back from honeymoon, no one expects us to be anywhere but in bed.”

 

She shook her head, pushed me away and retrieved her clothes. She got dressed and looked over her shoulder at me.

 

“Stop sulking, if you get out of bed now, I might let you test your luck again late tonight.”

 

I felt myself smirk, how could I turn down an offer like that?

 

*****

 

“So tell us, how was your honeymoon.”

 

I took Khushi’s hand into mine and Di smiled so brightly she could definitely give the sun a run for its money.

 

“See Chote, see! I told you I picked the right girl for you.”

“I’m sorry I didn’t believe you sooner, but truly you did pick the perfect woman for me.”

 

Khushi blushed a deep shade of red and I gave her hand another squeeze.

 

“So our honeymoon was pretty amazing. We saw all the sites and it was just the perfect getaway.”

“Well I’m glad you both enjoyed your time away. Do you have any pictures I can see?”

 

Khushi nodded beside me and rushed upstairs to get the pictures. She came back, handed them to Di and then sat down next to her. I watched as Di flicked through the pictures and Khushi explained where each one was taken. She’d also stop and try and tell Di a story about what had happened before and after each picture and funny enough most of the time, her stories were related to me doing something stupid.

Di carried on looking at the pictures. She turned to one and then stopped. She looked to me.

 

“What is it Di?”

 

She turned the picture around and showed me, it was one from that day on the beach where the photographer had gotten me and Khushi to kiss. I saw Khushi blush a deep shade of red and I couldn’t help but smirk.

 

“We look super cute right?”

“Chote this is adorable. You should have it enlarged and you guys should have it put up in your bedroom.

“I might just do that Di.”

 

Di and Khushi carried on flipping through the pictures. It was a beautiful sight, the two woman I loved the most together, bonding happily. I felt content, happy, the happiest I’ve been in a long time.

 

It was little while later. Di and Khushi had finished looking at the pictures a long time ago and they had just been talking about all kinds of things. I had grabbed my laptop and started working away. As much as our honeymoon was great and the break I needed, it was also the cause of me falling well behind with work. I had much to catch up before I went back to the office.

I excused myself and I made my way upstairs so that I could get hold of my files and stuff. I sat down on my recliner with my things and started to work…

 

*****

 

“Arnav!”

 

My head snapped up and I looked to Khushi who was stood infront of me looking highly unimpressed.

 

“What?”

“I’ve come and told you 3 times now that dinners ready, come eat.”

“I told you I’m busy.”

“I understand that, but food is important too. Come eat and then you can come back and work.”

 

I nodded, shut my laptop and went downstairs with her to eat.

 

“You finally managed to bring him down then?”

“Is he always this obsessed with his work Di?”

“Unfortunately.”

 

I chuckled and sat down and began eating. I was so focused on finishing my food and getting back to work that I didn’t even realise that Khushi and Di were just staring at me?”

 

“Is there a problem ladies?”

“Chote, you wolfed down your food like a man who’s been starved.”

“I need to get back and finish my work.”

 

Di shook her head while Khushi just watched. I finished my food and I went back upstairs.

 

*****

 

“Raizada, come to bed.”

“I’m almost done Khush.”

“Arnav, you’ve been working none stop all evening and now it’s almost half 11. Anything left you can finish tomorrow.”

“Just give me a minute.”

 

I heard Khushi sigh and I realised I should stop and go to her. It was our first night back, I wasn’t being fair on her.

I switched my laptop off and got ready for bed. I got changed and got into bed next to her. She smiled to me and moved closer. I cupped her face and kissed her, long and deep. She moved onto me and pushed me down into the bed. She fiddled with my t-shirt and pulled it off over my head. Khushi came back and kissed me again, her hands roaming wildly on my chest, she wanted me bad. I found the hem of her night dress and tried to pull it off but she stopped me. She broke our kiss and set up. She dropped her hands slowly to the bottom of her night dressed and pulled it over her head slowly, way too slowly. Little by little more and more of her body came into view. She pulled it over her head and threw it away. My eyes dropped from her face to her breasts, her perky little boobs. Khushi didn’t have the largest of breasts but god, the sight of them still got me salivating. I moved into her and pushed her down onto the bed. I felt like an animal attacking her, but only I knew how much I wanted her, how badly I needed her. I let myself take on of her hardened nipples between my lips and I sucked. Her body arched up, thrusting herself into me. She took hold of my head and pulled me into her.

She wrapped her long slender legs around my waist, pulling the lower half of my body onto hers. I let my hand wanted away from her breast that wasn’t in my mouth and I let it trail down her body into her panties. I pushed a finger into her and god she was moist. I pulled myself away from her breast and I undid my pants and threw them aside. I watched her, taking my body in. It felt like every time she saw me, she got more and more excited and I loved that because that’s exactly how I felt about her. I came back onto her and pulled her panties away.

I trailed kisses down her body all the way down to her core. I kissed her there, her legs around me tightened, pushing me further into her. I lapped at her juices, she tasted so good. I got her moaning, restless. Her hands grabbed onto my hair and she pulled me closer still.

 

“You like that yeah.”

“Mm.”

“I can make you come like this.”

“Do it.”

 

She was breathless and she was soaking. It made me feel good. This was what I was capable of, this is what I could do to her. I carried on my torture, kissing her there, licking her. I let my teeth graze her most sensitive spot and she I felt her body tighten.

 

“Arnavv…”

“Shh”

 

She was so close, almost there. I sucked her most intimate area one last time and that was it. Her climax hit her and she fell back into the bed, her legs limp around my body. I wiped my mouth and came away from her. I held her close to my body and took her lips between mine.

 

“I love you baby.”

 

Her eyes opened and  stared into my eyes. With all the power she had left in her body she pushed me and then climbed on top of me.

 

“Think it my turn now.”

 

Unwanted ~ Part 17

 

Khushi

 

He held me in his arms, his strong arms. I let it all out of my system, cried it all out, feeling the warmth of his body. This was what I needed in my life. This man, this warm, strong man that could provide me with all the stability I never had in my life.

 

“What can I do to make this all better for you?”

“Make love to me.”

 

He broke our hug and looked at me confused.

 

“Please.”

 

I took his lips between mine and kissed him with everything I had. I moved into him, holding him close to me. He kissed me so softly, I don’t think he’d ever been as gentle as this with me before. He took over the kiss and I let him take control. I didn’t want to fight for dominance today, I just wanted to take whatever he had to give.

We were getting into the moment and he slowly lowered me down onto the bed. His hands were rushing around my body, trying to touch every inch of my skin.

An involuntary moan left my lips and that set him on a wild one. My clothes were gone within the next moment and then his were gone. He came over me, his hands fondling with my breasts. He broke our kiss, and placed his lips over my hardened nipples. They were so ready, craving him. Every bit of me was craving him.

 

I let my hands move over him. His rock hard abs, his tousled hair, his hard, thick manliness, ready for me, standing proud.

 

 

“Arnav please, do it now.”

 

He kissed my lips once again and then he did what I wanted. He made us one, made me whole, made me his.

 

*****

 

“Arnav, it’s almost half 6, let’s get out of bed now!”

“Nope.”

 

He nuzzled his face into my neck and it made me giggle. I love his stubble, I really do, but it tickles like hell.

 

“I want to eat!”

“I want to eat you again!”

“Arnav!” I hit him playfully and hid my face in his chest. He laughed too and ran his hand along my naked body.

“You’re so god damn perfect baby.”

“You are too.”

“I love you Khush.”

“I love you too.”

 

I kissed him because that’s all I wanted to do, just kiss him.

 

“You do know that we only have 2 days left here.”

“Wait, 2 days? Where did the time go?”

“Time’s flown by.”

“Are you sure we can’t extend a little bit and stay a couple of more days.”

“I’m afraid not, I have to get back to work the day after we get back home.”

“Oh.”

“But that doesn’t mean we can’t make the most of the time we still have here.”

 

I smiled to him and moved into him. I didn’t know how things would play out once we got back home, but I wanted to make every moment of the time we had left.

 

*****

 

The first ray of light hit my face. I squinted my eyes and buried my face in Arnav’s chest. Yesterday felt so long ago. I looked at Arnav and I couldn’t help but smile. I should  be upset, hurt because of what happened yesterday. But I guess everything happens for the best. If all that stuff hadn’t happened, me and Arnav may still not have been certain about what we wanted and we may still have been with Ranveer and Nimisha respectively.

Last night, was our first as a proper couple. A couple that knew what they were doing and totally knew what they wanted. We made love over and over again and it was nothing like our first time. Our first time was rough around the edges, fueled by lust for one another. Driven by the curiosity we both had. We felt like teenagers having sex for the first time. We wanted  to try everything, not knowing how to do anything.

But last night was a night of love and passion. We knew what we wanted, we knew how we felt for sure. It was an expression of love from him to me and me to him. This was us promising ourselves to the other, becoming one, accepting out marriage.

 

Me and Arnav. Arnav and me. We are now one and we want to remain one. Forever and always.

 

*****

 

Authors note: I understand this is a relatively short update. It isn’t because I was short of time or because I didn’t know what else to write. I just wanted to leave this part at this point because I feel as though I have closed off this story line and this stage of their life. From the next part, honeymoon over and reality starts, are Arnav and Khushi going to be able to adjust to their new life, or will their relationship once again face barriers, making it once more feel unwanted?

 

 

 

Unwanted ~ Part 16

 

Arnav

 

So. We’d done it. We’d done the deed. Me and Khushi. I ran my hand through my hair, trying to make sense of it all. Khushi was in the shower and I took the time to think. Last night was amazing. I enjoyed it all so god damn much and more than that, the feelings that I felt were all right. I wanted to be with her, make her mine…

My my phone buzzed beside me and I picked it up, it was Ninisha. She’d left me a whole bunch of messages. She wanted to see me.

I put my phone down and thought for a while. Did I want to see Nimi? No. Not really. All I had on my mind was Khushi and how I loved every moment of last night, how I wanted to do it all again with her. But we needed to wait and sort ourselves out, figure out what we really wanted, what we needed.

 

*****

 

It was just over an hour later and me and Khushi were both showered and we’d had breakfast. I told her about Nimi wanting to see me.

 

“You should go and see her. See how it goes. I was thinking of maybe going to see Ranveer but I don’t know.”

“You should go too then.”

“How about we both go now, and we be back in 2 hours.”

“That’s a good idea.”

 

I got up and grabbed my phone. I moved back to Khushi, wanting to place a kiss on her cheek but she moved back and smiled sadly. I nodded, respecting what she was trying to tell me. She took hold of her own phone and we made our way to the lift.

 

“Back here in two hours and then we can have lunch.”

“Alright. I’ll text you if my plans change.”

“Same.”

 

Nimi and Ranveer were both staying on the same floor so we both got off and made our way to the rooms of our respective partners. Khushi reached Ranveer’s door and smiled to me and I returned one.

She knocked on Ranveer’s door and he let her in. The door shut behind her and I knocked on Nimi’s. I didn’t want to be here, not after last night.

Nimisha opened the door and she let me in. She didn’t look too happy.

 

“You could have returned my messages. I haven’t heard from you since last night.”

“I had an early night.” Since when was I able to lie so effortlessly?

 

I sat down and Nimisha offered me something to drink but I told her I’d pass. She came and sat next to me.

 

“I wanted to apologise about my reaction the other day. I get it, you still want to wait and do this properly, it’s okay, I’m ready to wait.”

“It’s fine, don’t worry about it.”

“So you’re not mad at me?”

“No I’m not.”

“Aw Arnav! Thank you.”

 

She threw her arms around me and hugged me tightly. And that’s when I noticed the difference. Between her and Khushi. Khushi felt so much warmer and she felt like she fitted my body so much better. Hugging Nimisha just felt so awkward. It was then I realised. I realised, it was Khushi. I wanted Khushi. I needed Khushi. I thought what I felt for Nimisha was love, but it wasn’t. I don’t know what I felt for Nimisha, but it wasn’t love.

I slowly started to pull away, trying to work out how to tell her that I didn’t want to be with her any more. Apologies that I couldn’t be the man I promised her I’d be. But I had to tell her the truth and explain. I couldn’t string her along.

 

“Nimisha, I need to talk to you.”

“What’s up?”

“I don’t know how…” And I stopped because I saw it. A love bite on her neck. One that definitely wasn’t given to her by me. She was trying to cover it with a flimsy scarf but I could see it. I moved the scarf and she tried to stop me but I didn’t let her.

“What the hell is that?”

“Arnav I can explain…”

“Have you been sleeping with someone else?”

“It was a mistake, I…”

“We’re through.” I’ll admit, I felt like a jerk for doing this, making a big deal about her sleeping with someone else when I’d slept with Khushi. But perhaps this was for the best.

“Arnav it won’t happen again, I swear.”

“It’s not just that Nimi. I’m in love with Khushi.”

“Arnav…”

“It’s over, we’re through.”

 

I got to my feet and began to leave. Nimisha was annoyed, beyond annoyed. She was thing whether or not to come after me, but she decided against it. She remained stationary and I left.

I got into the lift and made my way back up to mine and Khushi’s room. I hoped with all my heart she would realise. Realise that it was meant to be me and her. Realise that I love her.

 

*****

 

Two hours had passed and Khushi was meant to be back by now, but she wasn’t here. I looked at my phone, there were no messages or anything from her. I had left her two messages, one telling her that I had ended it with Nimi and the second telling her that I was in love with her. I wondered if I should call her, but I decided against it. Maybe she needed more time with Ranveer. What if she decided that she did want to stay with him? What if she decided she didn’t want me and what we did was a mistake?

I let another half an hour pass and still no Khushi. I called her, if she was able to she’d pick up, if she couldn’t she could just disconnect the call. It rang twice and then the phone was answered.

 

“Khushi where are you? Are you okay, what’s going on.”

“Ah ASR.” I felt my bloody run cold. Ranveer.

“Where’s Khushi?”

“We’ve been waiting for you. You can come and take your little slut. I’m done with her.”

 

I dropped my phone and rushed out of the room and into the lift. I reached Ranveer’s floor and pounded on his door. He opened it and there I saw my Khushi… Lying on the bed, beaten, bruised, broken. I rushed to her side and she reached out for me crying. I held her in my arms and turned to Ranveer.

 

“What the hell did you do to her!?”

“Gave her what was coming to her.”

“How dare you touch her!”

 

I let Khushi go and went and grabbed him by the collar and pinned him to the wall. He was shorter than me, nowhere near as muscular as me, but he was still strong.

 

“How dare I touch her!?”

“What the f*ck have you done to her.”

“You’re lucky I didn’t rape your little slut.”

“Little bas*ard. Don’t you dare speak about her like that!”

 

I wanted to hit him, lash out, but I didn’t. Only for Khushi, only for her sake. I didn’t want her to see me like that. But I knew I’d be back for this little son of a bi*ch. I let him go.

 

“Get the hell out of here and never come anywhere near Khushi again.”

“I’m done with her any way. Never was good for anything. I hope you get more out of her.”

 

He left and I rushed back to Khushi, she held me tightly and cried bitterly. I lifted her carefully off the bed and we got back into the lift and we made our way back to our room. Once there, I sat her down on our bed.

 

“Baby, what happened?”

 

She looked at me, her eyes red, her cheek glowing red too.

 

“Did he slap you?”

 

She nodded. I felt my anger rise above me. How dare he. How DARE he harm her.

 

“Tell me what happened.”

 

Khushi nodded and wiped her eyes. She moved into me and I held her close.

 

“I came and he was okay and he was happy to see me. He started to come close to me and I pushed him away and I realised I wanted to tell him about me and you, so I could end it with him. Arnav, I don’t want to have anything to do with him, not because of what he did now, but because it’s you. Its you I want to be with.”

“Khushi, I ended it with Nimisha too, I want to be with you.”

 

She smiled slightly and I gestured for her to carry on with her story.

 

“He got angry at that point but he didn’t do anything. He just questioned me about us and I told him that I was fond of you and that I was falling in love with you and that I wanted to try and make our marriage work. I didn’t want to say anything about last night. Mainly because he doesn’t need to know and also because it’s personal to us and no one needs to know. And I reminded him that he hadn’t been faithful to me by sleeping with someone else, but then he saw.”

“Saw what?”

“Redness on my neck.”

 

I look at her neck and there it was, hidden by her kameez slightly, but there it was, a love bite. Given to her by me at the heights of out passion last night. I let my thumb run over it.

 

“I’m so sorry. This is all my fault.”

“No no, it’s not your fault.”

“What happened after he saw it.”

“He… He saw it and he asked me about it. I didn’t want to tell him but he figured and he slapped me and told me I was a slut. He said that I’ve only known you for a little while and I was letting you do that to me, whereas I’d known him for years and I still didn’t allow him to touch me like that. I tried to explain, explain that I never meant to fall for you, but me and you just connected and I couldn’t help but feel myself falling for you. But he got so mad and he…”

“He what?”

“He hit me.”

“How? Where.”

 

She looked down, ashamed. I lifted her chin.

 

“Tell me Khush, tell me how I can make this all better for you.”

“He slapped me a few more times, touched me in a violating manner…”

 

She started crying again and I gathered her into my arms.

 

“He said, he said I was never worthy of him any way. That he only stuck around with me because he felt sorry for me.”

 

She broke down. How could someone do that to her?

 

“I promise you Khushi, I will deal with him. I’ll make sure he regrets hurting you, even if its the last thing I ever do.”

Unwanted ~ Part 15

 

Khushi

 

My head was a mess, my senses were a mess, everything was a mess. I’d love to say that due to all the mess, I no longer knew what I was doing, but that would be a lie. I liked Arnav’s kisses, I liked the way he touched me and I wanted more. I should think about this rationally, perhaps sleep off everything that had happened, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t leave things today. Something inside me clicked. I wanted him. I wanted him to take his rights as a husband and I wanted him to make me his. I don’t know how I felt about him, I don’t know if I love him, I don’t know if I still want to be with Ranveer. But something about Arnav’s touch was different, new, special…

So here I am. In the hot tub, naked top up, watching Arnav slowly make his way towards me.

 

“Khushi, maybe we should call it a night.”

“Nope. You can go back if you want, I’m staying until I’m all relaxed.”

 

He stood by the tub, looking at me but at the same time not looking at me. Bless him, he was a little shy, you could tell. He didn’t want to look at me, but do you blame him, I am naked? He sighed and got into the hot tub and sat opposite me. I turned up the setting of the hot tub so we had some bubbles and the water got a little bit warmer. He leaned back, taking in the warmth of the water, but there was a tension between us. He was still looking at me. I quickly decided what I wanted to do and then executed my plan.

I leaned back and stretched up and I let my hand come down over my breasts. I placed my hands on either side of them and gave them a squeeze and then brought my hands on front of them to almost massage them. Arnav watched me, and I could tell his control was slipping. I crawled towards him on my knees and gave him a kiss. I then turned around and placed myself between his legs so that my back was resting against his chest.

 

“Khushi?”

“I want you Raizada, and I know you want me too.”

“But…”

“Let go of all rational thoughts for tonight, please.”

 

I took his hands and brought them around and placed them on my breasts. He took hold of them and pulled me closer, I could feel his hardness against my back. He rubbed and squeezed my boobs and I could feel myself losing my control. I moved further back into him, trying to get closer to him. He placed kisses on my neck and shoulder. I wanted to turn around and kiss him, but he stopped me. His hand dipped into my bikini pants and he hooked  finger into me. I gasped, this was such a strange feeling but I liked it. He allowed another finger to join and he pushed them in and out of me. An involuntary moan escaped my lips. This led to him pushing his finger in and out of my faster, and his hold on my breast got tighter.

Suddenly, he let go of me completely, turned the hot tub off and got out. He then leaned over and picked me up and grabbed my towel off the floor. He passed it to me and then walked out of the pool room.

 

“Arnav?”

“I want you. God knows how much I want you.”

 

He opened another door and I saw it was a smaller bedroom. He threw me down on the bed and relieved himself of his wet trunks. He fumbled in the bedside drawer and took out a box of condoms. I looked at him, his long hard length. Placing a condom over his long hard erection, he moved back onto me and kissed my thighs. I gripped his hair and pulled him closer to myself. He held onto my legs and buried his nose and face into my thighs as he kissed me. He moved further up toward my mound. He hooked his fingers into my pants and pulled them away from. I pushed my legs together, but his hard grip, didn’t allow me to do so.

 

“You’re so beautiful…”

I could feel myself blush.

“Can I spend the night with you?”

“Yes.”

 

And he went for it, he dipped his tongue into my core. I knew I was wet, but this? He tongue was inexperienced, it was evident, but even then, he brought me pleasure. There was a feeling in my body, a feeling which I can’t even describe, but it felt amazing. I pulled him up and I kissed him again. He took hold of my waist and kissed me hard. Once again, he pushed his fingers into me and I felt my body move to the rhythm of his fingers.

 

 

“God you’re so moist.”

“I…”

“You’re so ready.”

“I want you.”

 

That was all it took, he got up slightly, poised himself above me and he entered me like a tonne of bricks. My body moved off the bed and I gasped in pain and he took my lips in his. He held my hips down and he moved in me slowly. His movement was calm and his pace steady. I wrapped a leg around his waist and I felt him move in me more deeply. It hurt to start with, but soon the pleasure was building up and I felt nothing but the pleasure. He was rough around the edges, showing his inexperience in this forte, but you could he was putting his everything into making love to me.

Making love? Where did that come from? We weren’t making love. We were having sex, sleeping together. We didn’t love each other? Or did we?

 

*****

 

Arnav carefully pulled the condom off his length, tied it up and put it down on the floor. He came back onto me and kissed me.

“You okay?”

“I’m great.”

“Should we go back to our room?”

 

I nodded. I pulled the sheets over me and he got off the bed and threw the used condom away. He then came back and lifted me off the bed and carried me back to our room and carefully placed me down on the bed.

 

“You’re not hurting or anything?”

“No, I’m fine, just a little tired.”

“Sleep, we’ll talk later.”

 

He moved the other sheets and tucked me into bed and got in beside me. I rolled onto my side, he moved closer to me and held me from behind. The next thing I knew, sleep took over…

 

*****

 

The first rays of light hit my face and I groaned. Was it already morning? I slowly opened my eyes and was met with the most beautiful site ever. Arnav Singh Raizada. His hair was a tousled mess, his lips were pink and pouted and his stubble, rough and rugged. I looked at him and couldn’t help but smile. He was perfect. I know, we came into this marriage, not really accepting it as the real deal, but now? Things had changed, I’d always passed it off as attraction, or slightly more than attraction but now. It was a deadly desire. I wanted him, every inch of him.

I looked up and saw that despite the fact that we had pulled away from each other during the night, our hands were still locked. I wanted to take my hand out if his and go to the bathroom, but I couldn’t.

A little while passed and he too woke up and looked at me.

 

“Good morning.”

“Morning, did you sleep well?”

“I slept great Khushi, I don’t think I’ve felt so content in years.”

“So you don’t regret anything that happened between us last night?”

 

He looked at me, his eye wide.

 

“Do you regret last night?”

“Oh no no no, I wanted last night as much as anything else.”

“Khushi what are we doing?”

“I wish I could say I have a clue, but I honestly don’t Arnav.”

“What are we going to say to Nimi and Ranveer?”

“Why do we need to tell them anything. I’ve thought about it too, and Arnav I honestly don’t see the point of saying anything to either of them it would just cause more problems.”

“But Khushi…”

“I know, we’re meant to be honest with them, but at the same time, we are married and we’re consenting adults.”

“I see what you mean, but I think, we shouldn’t do this again, not until we fully know what we want to do.”

 

I nodded, he had a point. I grabbed hold of the blankets, wrapped them around me and went into the bathroom and had a long shower. I needed to think, get my head straight, work out what I wanted. Last night with Arnav was amazing, I enjoyed everything he had to give me, but at the same time I loved Ranveer, didn’t I?

Unwanted ~ Part 14

 

Arnav

 

I watched Khushi take in the pool and the hot tub and couldn’t help but chuckle.

 

“Why are you laughing at me?”

“Because you haven’t seen this place yet and your expression is priceless.”

“Are you going to stand here laughing at me or are we going for a swim?”

“Come on, lets do this.”

 

I put my towel down by the side and offered my hand to Khushi. Khushi pulled the towel away from her body and took my hand. I took my sweet time to take in her perfect body. She was wearing a hot pink bikini which just about did it’s job. Her breasts were barely covered nor did they provide much security as there weren’t any straps going over her shoulders to keep it up, the top was held together by two strings tied behind her. If they came loose, the entire top would come off. As for the bikini bottom… Her butt… Damn, her pert round ass was on show, thank god it was only for me to see.

We made our way to the pool and I helped her sit down by the edge and she got in.

 

“The water’s so warm! Come on Arnav, scared to get your hair wet?”

 

She was challenging me, and I liked it. I plopped into the water beside her and she went off and did a lap of the entire pool. I watched her go. She took long, meaningful strokes, kicking at just the right speed, her bottom moving ever so slightly as she swam off into the distance. She then turned and came back towards me. I could see she had her face in the water, only coming up for air very rarely and very briefly. She came up towards me and stopped.

 

“You’re the one that suggested coming swimming and you’ve just been stood there.”

“I’m just enjoying the water, this is helping me cool off from a crappy day. Don’t worry about me, just carry on.”

 

She nodded and got onto her back and did a lap of the pool using the back stroke. I watched as her little feet fluttered and she moved away from me, her arms coming up and guiding her. I could see her breasts standing up proudly on her body. She came back to me. Once again, she stood before me.

 

“This really does feel weird, you just standing here.”

“I told you, I don’t mind.”

“But I do.”

“And why’s that Ms Gupta?”

“Because I can tell you’re eyeing me up.”

 

I watched as she bit her lip and I stepped closer to her and she moved back a little. I took hold of her upper arms and turned her around and pushed her into the edge of the pool. I didn’t know what came over me, but she looked so hot, sexy… She’s mine. Her lower back hit the edge of the pool and I stepped in between her legs. I moved into her, my body pressed against hers and she gasped.

 

“You’re hard?”

“Indeed I am.”

“But in water?”

“It’s warm water so not a problem.”

 

Khushi bit her lip and I pulled her closer to myself.

 

“Lip biting does something to me, don’t do it.”

“Why are you so turned on?”

“Because you’re fu*king sexy dammit.”

“You’re talking dirty Raizada.”

“I’m thinking dirty too.”

 

She bit her lip again and that was it. I felt my control snap. I leaned into her and kissed her, hard. My arms tightened around her waist and she moved further into me. Her hands went into my hair and she pulled me closer to herself and she kissed me back. I moved my hands off her waist and onto her breasts. She didn’t exactly have the largest breasts, but they were firm and round and perfectly perfect for her body. They fit in my hands, proving that God made her for me.

I gave them a squeeze, she gasped and I slipped my tongue into her mouth. I rubbed my hardness against her and she let out a moan. Her grip on me tightened and this urged me to carry on. I carried on kissing her and rubbing myself against her. I let go of all rational thoughts, all thoughts that were trying to work out what I was thinking about and what I was doing, left me. I didn’t want Nimisha, I didn’t want to touch Nimi, didn’t want to kiss her.

Khushi. Yes, hell yes, I wanted Khushi. I wanted every inch of Khushi. I wanted to make her mine, right here, right now, but of course I couldn’t. But why couldn’t I? What was so wrong about wanting my wife? My mind was made up, I wanted Khushi, was I in love with her? I didn’t know, but yes, I wanted her. I deepened the kiss, got it as deep as I could. My hands wondered along her body, feeling her curves, they went round her body and rested on the strings of her bikini top. Khushi must have felt my hands behind her, because she pushed her body forward into mine, her breasts pressing tightly against my chest.

 

“Arnav…”

 

I pulled at the strings and felt her exposed back. Her skin was soft, smooth, silky even. I broke the kiss and we opened our eyes. I could feel the uncertainty in her every little move, but she didn’t back off. I let go of the strings and the top tumbled off her body, leaving her breasts exposed to me. God she looked even better in reality. In my dreams, my head made her look like a goddess, but what I was seeing now… Heaven. Her arms came up slowly as she tried to cover herself but I stopped her and kissed her again. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me close, nipping on my lip and letting her tongue enter my mouth. Her hardened nipples pressed against my chest, she wanted me too… One of my hands cupped her exposed breast and I rubbed it. I pushed her as far back as I could and I pressed myself into her, grinding my body against hers. The need was too much I lifted her off the ground and placed her on the edge of the pool. I moved between her legs, both my hands feeling her body. She broke the kiss.

 

“Get out of the water.”

 

It was a command. Her eyes were looking drugged with desire. I pushed myself out of the water, lost my balance slightly and tumbled on top of her. She took me into her open arms, and when we made contact, we kissed. It was a passionate kiss. She had one knee propped up and I fell between her legs. Her breasts cushioned my chest and my hands locked with hers. She rubbed her body against mine and I knew, she wanted me too. I pulled one hand out of hers, and let it move down her body and into her bikini. I cupped her femininity and she arched up, letting me feel her further. I rubbed her there, never letting my finger enter her. As much as I wanted her, I felt like that would be too much of an intimate action, one which we weren’t ready for unless she really wanted it.

I pulled my hand out of Khushi’s pants and I pulled myself off her. I got to my feet and Khushi slowly opened her eyes. I grabbed her towel and passed it to her and she wrapped it around herself. As much as I wanted this, I had to stop myself. I wanted her proper consent before I took this further. I fished her bikini top out of the water and placed it by her feet. She wrapped the towel around her and stood up too and looked at me.

 

“I’m sorry… I let myself get carried away with you.”

“Why are you apologizing? It’s not like I’m drunk or anything and that I didn’t know what was happening.”

“You mean…”

“Arnav, I’d already said ages ago that if I got the opportunity to kiss you again, I would.”

“But that was a hell of a lot more than just a kiss?”

“Arnav, you believe in fate right?”

“Well yeah?”

“Then let’s assume whatever happens, happens for a reason.”

“Do you want to go back to our room, its quite late.”

 

Khushi shook her head.

 

“I want to try that hot tub. Come on.”

 

She walked off towards the got tub and I watched her go. Her hips swayed ever so slightly, the movement hypnotic, I loved it. She stood before the hot tub and turned to me, I walked over to it too. As she saw me approaching, she pulled the towel away from herself, exposing her breasts to me once more and then got into the tub, what had I gotten myself in for?

Unwanted ~ Part 13

 

Khushi

 

I got into the lift and exhaled. How was I so nervous? I was feeling fine, everything was going fine, I wasn’t even as mad at Ranveer as I was before. But then Arnav walked in, looking the way he did. Him and Nimisha had obviously been “busy.” But why was that bothering me? What Arnav did was entirely up to him and I was the one that suggested we needed space right? So if this was helping him get the space he needed then I shouldn’t complain.

The lift stopped at Ranveer’s floor and I walked out. He had texted me the room number and I looked at all the doors and then found the right one and knocked. My knuckles had barely left the door when he opened up and smiled at me.

“Khushi! I was worried you wouldn’t turn up.”

“Well here I am.”

“Come in.”

He ushered me in and I allowed him to. He got me to sit down on the sofa and then asked if I’d like anything to drink. I went for an orange juice.

“So how have you been and how’s the honeymoon been going?”

“Its been okay, I guess. What have you been up to?

“You know what I’m like, I’ve been around doing my thing.”

“Sit down Ranveer.”

I watched as his playful expression changed, but he sat down all the same.

“I’m guessing you want to talk about what happened the other night.”

“I want answers, yes.”

“I’m a man Khushi, isn’t that enough for you?”

“Of course it isn’t! It just solidifies what I’ve been thinking for days but it doesn’t answer anything.”

“Okay fine, so I slept with someone else, what now?”

“How could you? How could you do that to me?”

“What do you mean how could I?”

I could tell he was getting a little annoyed. He got up and turned away from me. But I wasn’t about to back down.

“Explain to me what happened.”

He turned back to me and sat down.

“There really isn’t much to say. I met her in the bar, she was down because her boyfriend was with someone else and I was missing you. I was getting all frustrated about you being here with Raizada and things just kept coming to mind, it was eating me alive Khushi. So I had a drink, brought her a drink, we got talking one thing led to another and the next thing we both knew, it was late that night and we were in the same bed.”

“It was a drunken mistake?”

“I guess you could say that.”

“She didn’t sound too drunk when she spoke to me on the phone, telling me she’d just bedded my boyfriend who didn’t want to see me again.”

“I guess I must have been more drunk then her then, because I honestly don’t remember much.”

“Have you seen or spoken to her since?”

“Of course not. Come on baby, I want you! I don’t want anyone else. It was a huge ass mistake and I regret it so bad. I just want these next 6 months to be over so I could take you home and you could be mine and all these complications are out of the way.”

I looked at him, taking in everything he was saying to me. It all made sense. But then my mind went to Arnav and what had happened between us. What happened with Ranveer and this girl was a mistake, but me and Arnav? I wanted him and he wanted me. We weren’t calling it a mistake. How could I say mad at Ranveer when I had pretty much done the same thing should I tell him? I thought to myself for a moment and then realised I couldn’t tell Ranveer about me and Arnav. He’d get mad, things would get messier than they are. We didn’t need any more complications.

“Tell me you understand Khushi, tell me you’ll forgive me.”

I nodded to him.

“I forgive you.”

He hugged me and I took in his scent. He smelt like Ranveer the way he had done for years now, a smell that had been so warming and homely. How was it that it smelt almost alien now. It wasn’t right. I pulled away from him, only to have him pull me towards him again.

“Let me make it up to you Khushi.”

He held me tight against him and I tried to break away from his hold. His lips slide to my neck and he started kissing me. It felt all wrong, I couldn’t… His hands moved into my hair and he pulled me into him. His hands moved to my cardigan and he tried to push it off but I kept hold of it.

“Baby why are you being like this, let me love you.”

No.”

“What do you mean no?”

He pulled away from me and I could see the confusion in his eyes.

“Don’t you want me?”

“No… I mean its not that, its just… We can’t do this, not now.”

“Why the hell not?”

“Because I’m married.”

“A marriage that isn’t meant to mean anything.”

“It doesn’t, I mean not like that! But at the same time, Arnav is my husband and I can’t cheat on him like this.”

Ranveer looked at me, it didn’t make sense to him and truth be told it wasn’t making much sense to me either.

“Let me get this straight. You won’t let me touch you, because you’re married. A marriage you don’t see as a marriage because it’s going to end in 6 months, but all the same, its a marriage and due to that you won’t let me touch you.”

“Ranveer…”

“So if Raizada wanted to sleep with you, you’d let him, because he’s your husband and it’s his right?”

“No! Of course not.”

That’s what I said out loud, but my heart was saying yes. Yes I’d let Arnav sleep with me, because I wanted him for goodness sake. What was happening to me? My head was a mess and I couldn’t think straight.

“Ranveer…”

“Forget it Khushi.”

“What?”

“You’ve confused me more than anything else and I can’t be bothered to deal with this now. I’m tired from the flight and I want some sleep.”

“Oh okay, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Hmm.”

I realised I should leave, so I got to my feet. I bid him goodnight and told him I’d come round tomorrow. He didn’t reply and I left. My head spun with all the different things I had heard today and everything that had happened. When I agreed with Arnav to do this, agree to this marriage for the sake of our families… It seemed so much more easier. I knew what I wanted from my relationship with Arnav and I knew what I wanted from Ranveer, but in a matter of a week, my views, my wants, everything had suddenly changed so much. I made my way back to mine and Arnav’s apartment. I got into the lift and made my way to the very top. I looked at my watch, it was still only 11. Would Arnav still be awake?

The doors of the lift opened and I got out and made my way to the master bedroom. Sure enough, there was Arnav, shirtless in bed, watching TV. His body was so toned, so manly, so perfect.

“You’re back already?”

“Things didn’t go as well as I had hoped.”

“You had a rough time too ey?”

I nodded and Arnav extended his hand out to me and I walked over to him and took it. He sat me down on the edge of the bed beside him and I smiled.

“You know you can talk to me about it Khushi.”

I got into bed beside him and began telling him about what had been happening with Ranveer since we got here. I told him about I had called him one morning and how a random girl answered the phone and I told him what she had said to me. I told him about what had just happened with Ranveer now.

“He wanted to touch me and kiss me Arnav, but I… I couldn’t do it. I stopped him, pulled away and then said I couldn’t do it because I was married to you and I’d be cheating on you. Why would I say that?”

“What do you mean?”

“The whole reason why we got married was because we understood each other and we understood what the other actually wanted. I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t mind if I got intimate with Ranveer, but I used you and our marriage as an excuse.”

“Maybe you just weren’t feeling up to it and it was the only thing you could think of, it doesn’t have to have a deep underlying meaning.”

“I guess you’re right… So tell me, how was your day?”

“Pretty boring, all she wanted to do was shopping and she hated the beach.”

“How could she hate the beach?”

He told me about how she didn’t want to get sand into her nails and between her toes and how all she wanted to do was shopping. He then went onto telling me about what happened, or hadn’t happened between them when they got back to the hotel.

“So you basically did the same thing as me?”

“Basically… What are we doing Khushi?”

“I don’t even know.”

I looked at him and he looked back at me. We were both confused, nothing was making sense to either of us. I didn’t know what I wanted any more and it seemed Arnav was struggling too.

“We need a break.”

“This was meant to be our break.”

“Damn right! Khushi let’s go do something.”

“At this time of night?”

“Yeah why not?”

“We can’t exactly go out.”

“Khushi, we’re in the penthouse apartment of the best hotel in Bali, we have everything we could imagine in here! And all we have to do is call for room service.”

“Oh yeah! So what did you have in mind?”

“Well, I was thinking we should test out the pool and hot tub.”

I nodded eagerly and I got out of bed.

“I’ll go get my bikini and my towel.”

I went over to the wardrobe and pulled it open and took out a different bikini to the one I wore when we went to the beach. I grabbed my towel and I went into the bathroom and got changed into my bikini and I wrapped my towel around me. When I got out, I realised Arnav had got out of bed, changed into his trunks and had a towel around his neck.

“Should we go?”

“Yeah, let’s go.”

We left our bedroom and he led the way. It was then I realised there was so much of the apartment that I still hadn’t explored. Other than the bedroom, the bathroom, the kitchen and the main living area, I guess I hadn’t seem much of this place. Finally we reached a large door and Arnav threw it open and I couldn’t help but gasp. He let me in and I went in and he shut the door behind us.

The pool was HUGE with fresh blue water. You could tell it wasn’t too deep, but a decent depth to go swimming in. In the far corner was a hot tub that looked just about big enough for 2. Arnav walked over to it and switched it on.

He extended his hand out to me.

“Care to go for a swim my lady?”

Unwanted ~ Part 12

 

Arnav

 

We finished breakfast and I helped Nimisha with the tidying up and I watched Khushi shuffle away. She needed space and I knew I couldn’t do anything with Nimi around.

“Once we’re tidy, do you want to go out? You can show me some of Bali.”

“We could… But Khushi would be here alone.”

“I’m sure she wouldn’t mind, I mean, she understands we’re in love and need our time together.”

I smiled and nodded but I only had one thing on my mind, was I still in love with Nimisha? Yes, I was starting to doubt my feelings, and I shouldn’t do, but something about Khushi, being with Khushi… Something in me was changing and I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. I wanted Khushi in a way I’d never really thought of Nimisha. I was attracted to Khushi, no doubt, but this morning was another thing altogether. We were conscious and we made out, again. I wanted to touch her, I wanted her so damn bad but I can’t have her. She’s with Ranveer and I’m with Nimisha. I ran my fingers through my hair. Why must everything be so hard? Am I in love with Khushi? I don’t know. Do I want a proper relationship with her? I don’t know. But am I attracted to her? Hell yes!

She was taking over my sanity, my peace, my sense of right and wrong. I couldn’t even sleep peacefully at night any more, she was occupying my dreams. And they weren’t normal, innocent, everyday dreams. They were erotic, containing nudity, kissing and sex. And of course Khushi.

“Arnav. What are you thinking about.”

I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Nimi. I was doing all this for her, this marriage was so that I could show Di and Nani that I loved them and would do whatever they wanted me to do, but ultimately it was for Nimisha, so that I could be with her.

“Yeah, we’ll go out.”

Nimisha clapped her hands out of excitement and hugged me.

“Okay, so I’ll go back to my room and get ready, you too get ready and come pick me up.”

She grabbed her stuff and left via our lift. I slowly walked into our bedroom to find Khushi tapping away at her phone.

“You okay?”

“I’m fine, you?”

“I’m going out with Nimisha, she wants to see some of Bali.”

“Oh, that’s great! Be sure to take her down to the beach, I’m sure she’d love it.”

Khushi turned away again and went back to her phone.

“Are you sure you’re okay?”

“I told you I’m fine, why wouldn’t I be okay?”

“This morning…”

“Like I said, forget about this morning and every other time since we’ve been here.”

I walked over to her and took her phone off her and pulled her off the bed.

“It maybe easy for you to forget, but it isn’t for me Khushi!”

“Why shouldn’t it be!?”

“I have feelings for you dammit.”

“We’ve been through this!”

“Have we really, Khushi?”

“I don’t even know what you expect me to say.”

“Tell me you want me.”

“Arnav…”

“Just say it. Tell me you want me as much as I want you.”

“Why are you trying to complicate things between us? We started this relationship as friends, can’t we carry on being friends?”

“No we can’t Khushi.”

I saw the hurt in her eyes and she turned away from me. Once again, I ran my hand through my hair, realising I’d said the total wrong thing.

“That came out wrong, I’m sorry. I’m not saying we can’t be friends, I’m just saying this is so fucked up.”

“I know it is, it’s a mess and we’re a mess.”

“Exactly.”

“And that’s why we have to keep a clear focus on what we want and why we agreed to this relationship in the first place.”

“But what if what we want changes? 6 months is a long time, heck, we haven’t even been married a week and I’m already thinking my minds changing.”

“We need distance from each other.”

I sighed and she did too.

“We need to make this easy for each other Arnav, not harder. We need to be friends and co-operate. We need to help each other focus on our ultimate goals.”

I nodded, she was right. I got myself dressed and ready to go.

“Will you be okay here alone?”

“Of course I will. I’ll sit and watch a movie or something.”

“What time will Ranveer be here?”

“Later this evening around 9ish.”

“So if we’re not back by 9 and you’re not here, I’m to assume you’ve gone to see him?”

“Yeah.”

“Alright, well take care and good luck when you see him.”

“Thanks.”

I smiled and left. Once outside our room I let out a sigh. What was happening to me?

*****

It was about 4 hours later and Nimisha still wanted to go around Bali. Personally, I’d had enough and I wanted to go back to the hotel and put my feet up. But of course, Nimi wanted to hit all the stores Bali had to offer all in one go.

As Khushi had suggested, I took Nimi down to the beach, but unlike Khushi, Nimisha was concerned about getting sand stuck between her toes and into her freshly painted nails. Why would you come to Bali if you didn’t want to enjoy the beach? But I put my thoughts aside and I carried on, going into all the stores with Nimisha and holding her bags for her.

My thoughts wondered to Khushi, how different to Nimisha she was, how she would kill to be at the beach all the time if she had her way. How shopping didn’t really matter to her. There was something about Khushi, that made her different from everyone else and I liked it.

*****

It was coming up to 8 in the evening, we’d been out almost all day, shopping. Finally, Nimisha was tired and we we’re having some dinner and then we’d be on our way back to the hotel. I wanted to be back in time to see Khushi before she went off to see Ranveer.

“It’s been such a great day today Arnav! I’ve loved every moment.”

“I have too.”

“I bet this has been your best day here in Bali so far right?”

I smiled politely. How could I tell her that it really wasn’t. I’d enjoyed every day here so far with Khushi and if anything, today had been the day I least liked? I put my thoughts aside and we made small talk as we ate our dinner. I paid the bill and we made our way back to the hotel. I got to reception and I saw a guy looking at me, he looked highly confused. I could imagine what he was thinking, what was I doing with Nimisha when my wife was still here?

“Has a Mr Ranveer checked in yet?”

“Is he a friend of yours?”

“Er, yeah.”

“Just a second.”

The guy behind the desk checked something on the computer and then looked up at me again.

“No sir, he hasn’t arrived yet. However his flight has landed and someone has already gone to collect him.”

“Oh, okay, thank you.”

I turned away and joined Nimi and we made our way upstairs. We got to her floor and we got out and she led me to her door and I opened it for her.

“Well it’s been a great day Nimi, but I’m tired so…”

“Aren’t you going to come in?”

“I… Er, okay.”

I walked in and Nimisha locked the door. I put her bags down by the wardrobe and she went into the bathroom.

“Don’t leave okay.”

“Okay?”

She shut the door behind her and I pulled my phone out of my pocket, no calls, no texts, no Khushi. She clearly hadn’t missed me. I sighed and put my phone back into my pocket. Why was it affecting me that Khushi hadn’t needed me all day?

It was then Nimisha walked out of the bathroom in nothing but her lingerie and she moved in front of me. I looked up at her and she looked at me seductively. I got up from the bed, but she took hold of my shoulders and sat me down and she sat on my lap, facing me.

“Nimisha, what are you…”

She started kissing my neck and undoing the buttons of my shirt. I wanted to put her hands away, but she was adamant.

“Nimi we…”

“Sh, this is like a pre-wedding honeymoon.”

“Why don’t we just wait you know.”

“Uh uh, no.”

She carried on kissing my neck, her hands moving under my shirt. She pushed me down and lay on top of me. I didn’t want this. I didn’t want this. I didn’t like her touch, I didn’t like her kisses. I didn’t want to be here with Nimisha.

I pushed her off me and quickly stood up.

“What the hell is your problem Arnav?”

“I can’t do this.”

“Why? You’ve always pushed me away but this?”

“I just can’t okay. It’s adultery, I can’t. It’s against everything…”

“Oh please.”

“Let’s just wait okay, we’ll get married and then I’ll be all yours and you all mine.”

“Just leave please, don’t embarrass me any more.”

“I’m sorry Nimi, I really am.”

“Whatever.”

“I’ll see you tomorrow…”

I turned and headed out of the door and into the lift. What was happening? How had things gotten so god damn complicated!?

I got to the top and walked in. I went to our bedroom and found Khushi sat at the dressing table in a mid length western dress. She had her hair curled ever to slightly and she looked damn beautiful. She turned and smiled and then I watched as her smile slipped slightly. I watched her as her eyes ran over me, she took in my messy hair and my untucked shirt and she must have noticed that the top 2 buttons weren’t fastened properly. God knows what she was thinking of me at that point.

“How was your day?”

“It was okay, didn’t end to great.”

“Oh no, do you want to talk about it.”

“Not right now. Any way, how was your day?”

“It was alright, I’ve been watching films and stuff and stuffing my face with popcorn, so it’s been good.”

“Are you off to see Ranveer now?”

“Yup. He landed a while back and he texted me a little while ago, saying that he would be here soon.”

“Are you excited?”

“Slightly, I need to settle some things with him first.”

“Well I wish you all the best  for that.”

“Thanks.”

Khushi’s phone beeped and she picked it up.

“Ranveer’s arrived.”

I watched her as she stood up, put her shoes on and pulled her dress down. She threw a cardigan on and then looked at herself in the mirror.

“Do I look okay?”

“You look great.”

“Thank you.”

“No problem, do you know when you’ll be back?”

“Not really, I mean I really need to talk to him about stuff.”

“Would you like me to wait up for you?”

“No, it’s fine, you’re probably tired after the long day you’ve had. You sleep.”

She smiled and then turned and left. I heard her, make her way across the apartment and click the lift and I heard it ping open. I looked out of the door and watched her step into the elevator and I sent her a smile as the doors shut. And off she went…

Unwanted ~ Part 11

 

Khushi

 

It was 6:30 am and the ringing of the hotel phone woke me up. I lifted my head, aware of the fact that there was a body pressed up against mine. It happened again. Arnav had his legs tangled in with mine, only difference this time was that his hand had found its way under my nightdress and was covering my breast. Why was this happening. I tried to move, so that I could answer the phone, but as I moved, it was as though he felt it and he held my breast in a tighter manner. I couldn’t move.

“Arnav…”

“Hmm.”

“Let go of me.”

“Sh, I’m sleeping.”

“Arnav!”

Eyes still shut, he suddenly pulled me, moving me further into his hard body. His hand moved to my stomach and I could feel his manliness poking my butt. He rubbed himself against me and I moaned. I didn’t mean to, but the action was so sexual, I couldn’t help it. His hand moved back up to my boob and he rubbed it all the while his manliness still rubbing against my butt. I realised what I needed, or more so what I wanted. I turned in his arms and placed my hands on his chest and pushed his down onto the bed. I leaned over him and I kissed him. And he kissed me back! But he was still sleeping. I let my hand feel his chest, his stubbled face, my hand moved, further down his body and I rubbed his manliness. God he was so hard. Thoughts filled my head, what would it feel like to have his manliness buried deep within me?

And it was then he woke up. His eyes snapped open and he pushed me off him.

“What on earth!”

I looked at him and he looked back at me. It sunk in what I had just done and what I had been thinking. I looked away from him and made to the phone to answer it. It was ringing for the fourth time now, but Arnav pulled me back and pushed me down onto the bed. He moved over me and pinned my wrists down.

“What the hell were you doing to me?”

“It was your fault.”

“How?”

“You were the one that was spooning with me. You were the one that had your hand under my clothes, touching my boobs.”

“I wasn’t…”

“You were Mr Raizada and then when I tried to pull away you pulled me towards yourself and started rubbing your d*** on my ass.”

“I was dreaming…”

“And your dreams weren’t just dreams. You were touching me up and you got me all turned on and so I kissed you.”

“But you didn’t just kiss me.”

“No I didn’t. I touched you too.”

He looked down at me and I looked straight back at him. We both knew I was attracted to him, if anything today’s actions just reinforced that further. What happened next, one moment we’re staring at each other, the next he’s on me, kissing me and I’m kissing him back. I reached up for him and let me hands wander into his thick hair. It was funny how a man who controlled everything was unable to control his hair. His hands moved away from my wrists and along my body. Something about his touched made me want him so much more. I arched up and pulled him closer to myself. Our kiss was hungry, needy. It was exhilarating and I wanted it to never end.

But of course we both got out of breath and we came up for air. Arnav moved off me and he looked at me and I looked straight back at him. The phone went off once more and I moved to answer it.

“Khushi speaking.”

“Mrs Raizada I’m so sorry to have disturbed you, but we have your friend here, who is also staying here who says she has prepared breakfast for you all to share. Should I send her up?”

“Er…”

I look over to Arnav and I realised that we need to talk.

“No, tell Nimisha that we’ll let her know when she can come up, Arnav’s still asleep.”

“Okay ma’am.”

I put the phone down and explained to Arnav that Nimisha wanted to come up with breakfast.

“Arnav, we need to…”

“I know, we need to talk. We need to figure out what we want.”

“Yes exactly.”

“I don’t know what I want Khushi. I… Everything’s a mess. I’m telling myself I still want to be with Nimisha, but do I really? I avoided her kiss last night. I’ve never been a fan of kissing Nimi but I’d never done what I did last night before. Yet I want to kiss you, I dream about kissing you. What’s happening?”

“It’s the attraction.”

“That’s what I said to you before and you said it wasn’t just attraction for you, and I’m starting to feel the same Khushi.”

I bit my lip and looked at him.

“What do we do now though?”

“What do you mean?”

“That’s something between us Arnav, there’s no point trying to deny it, but how do we go about it?”

“We’re mature adults. We should know what we want.”

“I want Ranveer… But…”

“But you have some weird kind of feelings for me.”

“Yes, that.”

“I feel exactly the same way.”

“But Arnav, our feelings are wrong.”

“Are they? I mean the last time I checked we’re a married couple, who consented to our marriage. Indeed it wasn’t a long term plan, but if we want each other then why don’t we just say we want to be together.”

“But Nimisha and Ranveer…”

Arnav ran his hand through his hair and I could tell it was stressing him out.

“Arnav please, let’s just forget about this. Maybe you’ve just been away from Nimisha for too long and I away from Ranveer. I’m sure when we spend time with them again we’ll both stop thinking and feeling like this.”

“So what do you want me to do?”

“I was us to forget about that’s been happening and we should enjoy our time here with our respective partners.”

Arnav looked away from me and grabbed his own phone. I watched him as he went through his messages and he called Nimisha.

*Hey Nimi, yeah Khushi’s just woken me up. Give us both half an hour and we’ll get ready and you can come up and we can all eat together. … Yeah that’s great, so I’ll see you in a bit … Yeah me too, bye*

He disconnected the call and looked at me.

“You’re messing with my head and my sanity Khushi Kumari Gupta.”

*****

It was about 45 minutes later when the lift pinged and the doors opened to reveal Nimisha. She was wearing a short brown dress and she had her hair down with small curls at the bottom. She rushed into the apartment, handed the boxes to me and rushed into Arnav’s arms. I noticed how Arnav hesitated. He lifted his hands to hug her back but he lowered them again and broke the hug. Nimisha clearly had noticed this.

“Is everything okay?”

“I just haven’t been feeling too good.”

“Oh no, what happened?”

“I think I may have caught a bit of a cold.”

I turned and left, they needed their privacy. I walked back into our room and picked my own phone up. I had a whole load of texts and calls from Ranveer but I wasn’t about to reply to him. He’d be here later this evening and we would talk then. It was a little while later when Arnav called me to come and eat. I walked into the dining room and watched as Nimisha plated up various breakfast items.

“I don’t know if the waffles will still taste as good as they usually would, I’ve had to heat them up again.”

I sat down at the table and looked at everything.

“This is amazing! Why did you go through all the trouble.”

“I just wanted to make a good impression with you I guess.”

“Oh Nimisha…”

“Please call me Nimi.”

“”You really didn’t need to do all this, I have nothing against you so why would you need to be making an impression on me.”

“I know, I know, it’s just, I don’t know, I just felt like I needed to make a good impression on you.”

I smiled at started eating what Nimi had put on my plate. I looked over to Arnav and I noticed him watching me. I looked away, I know what he was thinking and I was thinking the same, how did things suddenly get so complicated between us?

Unwanted ~ Part 10

 

Arnav

 

Khushi was holding onto my arm and we both walked out into the lobby and began making our way to the elevator. But I was stopped dead in my track when I thought I saw her. I brushed Khushi off and then had to take a good look and indeed, there infront of us…

“Nimisha?”

She rushed towards me and hugged me tightly.

“What are you…”

“I couldn’t wait any longer, I’ve missed you so much, so I changed my ticket and came a little bit earlier.”

She pulled away from me and I looked to Khushi who was slowly moving away from us, looking highly awkward.

“I wanted to surprise you!”

“I’m really surprised. Er Nimisha this is Khushi, Khushi, Nimi.”

“Hi, it’s nice to meet you Nimisha.”

“Oh please call me Nimi and yeah it’s great to meet you too.”

“I er, I’ll go to our room and let you guys catch up.”

I watched Khushi turn and leave. It was now just me and Nimi.

“Have you spoken to the front desk about arriving early?”

“Yes I have and they’ve said that I’ll have to pay the extra amount otherwise there isn’t a problem as it was an empty room already.”

“Should we go up to your room or would you like to grab a coffee or something from outside?”

“Can we go up to my room then?”

I nodded and we got into the elevator and Nimisha pushed the right button. It felt weird. I’ve been looking forward to seeing here, but now she was here, it just felt… Well inconvenient. My mind went back to Khushi and about how we’d spent the evening together dancing and enjoying ourselves.

The lift stopped and we got our and Nimi led me to what was her room. She unlocked the door and we stepped it. It was a normal sized hotel room, nothing like what me and Khushi had. Nimi dropped her bag on the side and then sat down on the sofa and I sat down beside her. Why was it that even after seeing her after such a long time, I felt like I could think of nothing to say?

“So, how have you been?”

“I’ve been good, you?”

“I’ve been good too.”

“How’s your time here been so far.”

“It’s been alright, just been getting to know Khushi a bit really.”

“She seems really nice.”

“She is.”

“When’s her boyfriend going to arrive?”

“Should be arriving late tomorrow evening.”

“And then we all go our own ways?”

“Kind of.”

She hugged me again.

“Oh I’ve missed you so much Arnav.”

“I have too.”

She pulled away slightly and then moved back in again, her eyes closing. She wanted to kiss me. She came close and I could feel her breath against my lips and I couldn’t do it. I turned ever so slightly so she just got my cheek. This clearly shocked her.

“Arnav?”

“I’m sorry, I just…”

“You’re tired and it’s been a while I get it. Well I guess I’m tired too so I’m going to get some sleep.”

She got off the sofa and moved towards her bags and began opening them fishing for clothes.

“Would you like me to get you anything or sort anything for you?”

“No. I think I can manage, you should go get some rest.”

I nodded, gave her a peck on the cheek and then left and made my way towards the elevator once more. I got in and pushed the button for the top floor. I ran my fingers through my hair. What the hell was I doing. It was true, I never enjoyed kissing Nimi, but I had never done that before. I’d never pulled away or turned away as I had just done. The lift pinged and the doors opened and I stepped out into our room. I walked straight to the bedroom where Khushi was in bed watching a film. She looked up and smiled to me.

“You’re back already? I didn’t think you’d come back at all tonight.”

“Yeah she was tired and I’m tired too so… What are you watching?”

“Kuch Kuch Hota Hai.”

“You like that?”

“Love it! Salman Khan’s in it so…”

“No he isn’t, it’s an SRK film.”

“Well yeah, but Salman plays a part too, he’s Anjali’s fiance.”

“Oh yeah! I remember now.”

“I’ve only just started watching. You should go get changed and then you can watch with me. I’ll pause it for you.”

I nodded to her and then went into the bathroom and got changed. I got out a few moments later and got into bed and Khushi started the film from the beginning and we both watched. It’s a long film, so at some point Khushi moved into me and I put my arm around her and we carried on watching. I saw the tears gathering in Khushi’s eyes when little Anjali hugged big Anjali as she was leaving the summer camp. I couldn’t help but roll my eyes slightly. I mean we all know its going to be okay in the end? Why get emotional? Typical woman. I chuckled at my own thought and Khushi looked at me.

“What?!”

“Nothing.”

“Stop laughing at me!”

“How do you know?”

“I just do okay.”

“Is this some kind of wife telepathy?”

At this Khushi looked away and blushed slightly.

“I’m just your namesake wife.”

“I know, but you’re still my wife.”

“Not you’re real wife…”

She looked away and carried on watching the film. I observed her expression, there was something weird about her now but I wasn’t about to say anything. We carried on watching the film.

The final scenes of the film played and Khushi wiped away her tears of joy. The film ended and Khushi turned the TV off.

“Arnav…”

“What’s up?”

“Do you think things would be different between us if we weren’t committed to different people?”

“I feel like we’ve spoken about this before?”

“We probably have.”

“Maybe… I mean I like you Khushi, there’s no denying that.”

“I like you too…”

“But…”

“We’re in love with different people.”

Khushi looked away, I felt like I should say something to her, say anything, but I couldn’t think of anything.

When I finally had an idea, her phone rang and she reached out for it. It was Ranveer. Khushi rejected the call and put her phone away.

“Is everything okay?”

“It’s fine… I just… I’ll talk to him when he get here.”

I nodded and she lay down and got comfortable. I watched her and then settled down myself. Had something happened between Khushi and Ranveer? Was it because of me?

*****

Authors note

Hey guys, I’m finally back! I feel like I do this a lot, go missing for a while and then come back. But any way, hope you enjoy this part and I’m working on the next ones too. At the moment I need some time to read through all my notes and some of the older parts before I can update “scars” because I’ve absolutely forgotten where I was going with that one. So I’ll update again soon, thanks guys